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ARE YOU
1. Perfect? - Quite the opposite, actually, flawed in every way.
2. Tall? - 5'7
3. In your pajamas?: No.
4. Left handed?: No, but I wish I was.
LAST
1. Friend you saw: Bencat, Zach, Brandi, Spencer, Meghan ( All in the same room)
2. Talked to on the phone: My sister. If text maybe kathryn, call, I don't remember.
3. Person to text you: Kathryn
4. Was today better than yesterday?: Yeah. Definitely. I worked all day yesterday >.<;;
FAVORITES:
1. Number: Infinity, or 5 ( others: 55, 555, 13)
2. Color(s): Gray
3. Fruit: Pomegranate/Strawberries It's a tie.
4. Place: Not really specific, but I love forests, and sitting in a favorite tree...Maybe at the camp back in maine, or that fort me and my younger step brother made with a fallen tree and some extra sticks.

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: I took my cat off my bed

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: Yeah, way too much actually. My drawing ability, my video editing, the way my life's going downhill at the moment.

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: I don't remember. I think it was 2012.

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: I'm in graphics, and my room, but if you mean other than that it would be my job, CVS.

Q. Do you smile a lot?
A: I can't really tell, when I smile...I can't see myself.

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Only on the same star. But my wishes usually come true, if they are small ones. Large, more important wishes I don't believe can be granted. You have to work for things...and wishing, can be very dangerous.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: When I want too be.

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: My bed, I'm not aloud to sleep in my closet anymore. >:

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: I don't remember.

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: Thinking about things I'm gonna draw next, and what to do about my moms job loss.

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
A: I think 1 would be in a genocide/illness or something, 2 would be homeless, 3 is probably where I am at right now, my mom lost her job, we lost a house we were gonna buy+ thats probably one of the worst things. The fact that there's a lot of other things doesn't help emotionally.

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: Graphics kids talking in the background, music playing...

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: Yeah, my spine and wrist hurt like hell, and the back of my neck a little too, then again I myself am not weak but in a way I am cause I am always in pain due to migrains, headaches, throat issues, my lungs/ribs while breathing, and just all shocks of pain in alot of parts of my body. Yeah.

Q: What's your favorite month?
A: August

Q: What did you do last night?
A: Worked until 8, walked home, and checked my mail+facebook, then played some Rune Factory Frontier. And yelled at my rabbit, and attempted sleep ( Which didn't work out too well.)

EIGHT EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now? Yeah.

2. Are you happy? - Right now? Well I'm kind of neutral, I'm happy to be in graphics, yes.

3. Are you sad? - Not really sad, just kind of stressed/confused.

4. Are you bored? - No, there's always something I could be doing..

6. Are you nervous? - Yeah...

8. Are you tired? - I can't tell, I will be dead tired later though.

ABOUT YOU :
001. Real name? Tiffany Feller
002. Nick names? Tiffy(HATE) Tiff, Tiffalu, Internet: Wing, Kanna, Kano, Kanako, Kannananana, Guro,+Doll.
003. Eye color? Dark Brown, Such a disgusting eye color.
004. Zodiac sign? Monkey. .........Ugh.
005. Male or female?: Female. But I'd rather, not be.
009. Smart? - Not at all, when it comes to thoughts about the world I can be intelligent when I want too, and I do have a very good vocabulary, I just don't use it all the time.
010. Hair color?: Dark Brown, Not counting the faded highlights..

011. Tall or short? - I wish I was short, not a creepy midget, just pretty short...Tall doesn't suit me at all.
013. Sweats or Jeans?: Jeans.
014. Phone or Camera?: Phone...I can take pictures, with my phone.
016. Drink or Smoke?: N/A.
020. Tattoos?: I'd love to get a fullbody tattoo, If I was rich.
021. Righty or lefty?: Uh...? I said I wanted to be a lefty, but I'm right. >x>

FIRSTS :
024. First best friend? - Olivia Emerald
025. First crush? - No Idea
027. First pet? - First one that's (Mine) is my bunny, the others were my moms.
028. First big vacation? - What do you mean by big? I guess...Florida, Disney+Cruise to bahamas. Niceee.

049. Eating? - No.
050. Drinking? - I like...Coffee...Expresso, Cappuccino, All kinds, Oh, Tea too! I love Earl Grey Tea.
052. I'm about to: NOT Play TF2 with Buzz...and complete editing this part because this was actually Zach's part. My bad. xD Guess I skipped it. Um...bout to take a walk cause I'm stressed.
053. Listening to? - Some music Ms. Olsen is playing...I can't hear it too well...I think I'm going deaf.

079. Drank bubbles?: No...I was curious when I was younger, but I knew it would be stupid.
080. Lost glasses/contacts? Yeah....alot.....>>;;
081. Ran away from home? No...thought about it...almost did, a bunch but I wasn't a brat.
084. Broken someone's heart?: I was told this about twice...>: I feel bad, I do...I didn't act right about the break ups either...=.=;;
085. Been arrested? Never.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN :
090. Miracles? Of course
089. Yourself?: Not really....
092. Heaven?: Yes....at some level.
093. Santa Claus?: No.
094. Love?: Yes, Of course.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Do you like someone?: I LIKE a bunch of people, but I love someone, yes. Very much.
099. Do you believe in God?: At some level...yes.


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I TAG:

Check out his page, he made an awesome comic called CHOO. He has an original style and its pretty sweet, not anime though, but check out his page anyways, he definitely needs more pageviews and watchers cause his style is just so fuckin good.

MY DAD BOUGHT ME A NEW TABLET YAYYYY

Alright what the fuck I can't find my fucking tablet pen, and you know this is a brand new tablet, I don't have anymore money to spend right now, and the tablet is my most important item. =/ Omg. They are $100 each, and I got this one late this summer. What the fucking hell. They should really come with extras. Coming with one, is really ridiculous.

I really want to rant to myself sort of..so I don't go crazy typing things out is always nice. I feel like crying everyday. I'm so upset. I'm so sick of people. I want to get out..I feel like I could take a walk to no where, although I'm binded down too my house because I have school, work, and my mom won't let me take walks anywhere. I want to go away...I need a home, I need a sanctuary where I can go too...when I was younger I lived near a big forest, and could climb trees and play there. Now I have nothing to help brighten my mood.

All I do is sit and talk to myself and sulk like some bitching emo kid...and I'm so sick of myself...I'm sick of being me, too. I'm always so jealous of other people. The only thing I can think of is " I'm the worst" " He is better.." " I'm not nearly as good" " I wish I could be like..." " If only it were me" " what if.." I have so many mixed feelings, and my personalities contrast eachother way too much, my mental disorders weren't as bad for a while..but they are really fucking up again. I just don't know what I should do anymore, I don't want to end up hurting myself again like I used too.


Even without me doing anything to myself I end up with so many cuts, bruises, and unbearable pain in various parts of my body. It often also hurts to breathe, my rib-bones will occasionally hurt. I haven't been to the doctor since before freshman year due to my phobia of doctors...and surgeries, illnesses...ect. But I think things are getting so bad...people are telling me to go to the doctor. I only care about the pain though, when it actually happens, and I can't move my wrist, or my ankle...or my leg...or whatever it is. In order to prevent myself from screaming I have to grit my teeth, and put alot of pressure onto the part that feels like it's going to explode, and I really would rather slice myself with a knife than feel how bad that pain is. It eventually goes away. But it also means I cannot move for a while...and the pain lingers still, but at least too a point where it is bearable.


I feel so distant from all my friends now...even when I hang out with some of them more..I just don't know. I'm so frustrated. I'm so obsessed with two people at the moment, that it's crazy. I've seen a special person who is god status too me, I haven't seen them in quite the long time. They make me really happy, my best friend, but, I'm afraid she will hate me. I don't know why though...I have a bad feeling about everything. I have the feeling I just shouldn't talk, or should keep everything only too myself. Am I annoying others? I also..I'm having trouble reacting too people//I don't get it!

I don't feel like doing homework...working on my senior project...even drawing..all I do is lock myself up in my room all day...and sit on the computer...doing absolutely nothing...and then turn it off on occasion, and just look out my window. I hope it rains soon...I want it too rain, because the rain makes me happy.

I'm sick of being so falsely happy. Sometimes...when I laugh, I am happy really though...my friends make me happy...but still. There's so much going on right now at home...but I've ranted enough...and for some reason as of recent I've been thinking about in the past...which I shouldn't...it's the PAST. It's behind me. It still hurts to think about it. I almost wonder how many of friends have went through worse abuse...